I haven't always been this way..

It's crazy to look back on my life and think I have always thought I was bigger than I should be.  I look back on those pictures from highschool, early college, hell, even two years ago and wish I could slap my old self for being insecure.  What I thought was bad then, is beautiful to me now.  I'm hoping to avoid continuing this routine.  The pictures of me now are bad, but I don't want to see them in 2 years and think I looked good.  That would mean I've gained MORE weight.  Who I am now has to be my absolute max.  One day I'll get back to my smaller sizes, but instead of feeling ashamed of myself, I will own it.